THIS ENTIRE POST is SO MANY ways a replica of my past 60 years!
Abuse, trauma, rejection, and name calling are burned into our brains by unhealthy parents or others we are forced to live with. In many ways, I shocked at how the Lord has carried me and grown me into a “survivor” and an “instrument” for Him (2 Corinthians 1:3-5) over all these years.
The suffering has not stopped. It’s been carried out periodically by those I protected . Even now at 60 years of age, the Lord is STILL growing me into a stronger daughter of HIS! Those whom have hurt me….have been continuously amazed at the “GRACE” the Lord has allowed me to show them in a healthy way. I have learned boundaries and I practice them!
I SO identify with your post/story. If only I could reach through the air waves and hug you and tell you I am your sister and I empathize! Our strength will continue to grow as the Lord uses us for HIS service! ❤️❤️❤️
I have been on the same journey as you l found God and recovery it's not easy it's worth it God bless you.Love you , and don't give up, you are priceless to God.
Yes lighten the load give it to God,ask and you will receive,and pray l sing the worship music l put it on l feel better.l live alone lam in God's waiting room.lf l didn't get recovery from all the abuse l would not be who l am now.Its a spiritual journey.l have my bible too.Its a day at a time.Take care.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much this speaks to me and makes my heart feel seen. So many many years feeling unseen but having faith God loves me. Facing the beliefs brought about by childhood and having the faith in God to change them. Bless you for sharing your journey and inspiring others.
Thank you so much for writing this. So much of your story is like mine, although where you were vocal, I was timid and shy. But the insults, rejection, and trauma still hurt and need healing and are healing. I especially appreciated "true faith isn't the absence of doubt but the courage to keep going despite it." And that is what we do, we keep going, and every now and then I remind God that I'm still here despite it all, and haven't left Him, and He hasn't left me either. God bless you, Sarah!
I saw your post of FB and was about to ask if you had ADHD 😆. So I thought I better click the blog link to read more first. I don't read many blogs! I am currently going through diagnosis for ADHD. I'm 38 and read a profile of it in women last year and it described me!! I finally had an answer for why I had been 'failing' at life. My words, or the enemy's, no one had ever said that. I just have never been able to hold a full-time job, I get physically sick. I hate doing any job I've ever done so I feel like I'm lazy and go into a depression and self medicate, feel like a failed Christian but know God loves me...rinse and repeat. I hope to find out for sure if I have ADHD soon.
Oh I am hearing you! Yes to your question. It took a long time for me to get there. But honestly… I don’t attach it to my identity anymore, but it did explain a lot. I think God created me exactly how I was supposed to be quirks and all. Keep doing you. You haven’t failed and praise God for grace… am I right?
THIS ENTIRE POST is SO MANY ways a replica of my past 60 years!
Abuse, trauma, rejection, and name calling are burned into our brains by unhealthy parents or others we are forced to live with. In many ways, I shocked at how the Lord has carried me and grown me into a “survivor” and an “instrument” for Him (2 Corinthians 1:3-5) over all these years.
The suffering has not stopped. It’s been carried out periodically by those I protected . Even now at 60 years of age, the Lord is STILL growing me into a stronger daughter of HIS! Those whom have hurt me….have been continuously amazed at the “GRACE” the Lord has allowed me to show them in a healthy way. I have learned boundaries and I practice them!
I SO identify with your post/story. If only I could reach through the air waves and hug you and tell you I am your sister and I empathize! Our strength will continue to grow as the Lord uses us for HIS service! ❤️❤️❤️
Much Love, Diane
I will take that airway hug Diane ❤️ I think that’s a gift we have been given to offer grace and mercy despite of the pain. Keep being a blessing ❤️
I have been on the same journey as you l found God and recovery it's not easy it's worth it God bless you.Love you , and don't give up, you are priceless to God.
That’s so amazing to hear! We just keep on keeping on, right? ❤️
Yes lighten the load give it to God,ask and you will receive,and pray l sing the worship music l put it on l feel better.l live alone lam in God's waiting room.lf l didn't get recovery from all the abuse l would not be who l am now.Its a spiritual journey.l have my bible too.Its a day at a time.Take care.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much this speaks to me and makes my heart feel seen. So many many years feeling unseen but having faith God loves me. Facing the beliefs brought about by childhood and having the faith in God to change them. Bless you for sharing your journey and inspiring others.
I feel your comment! It takes a lot of work to change how we view things but that’s right… keep trusting God with the changes ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you
Thank you so much for writing this. So much of your story is like mine, although where you were vocal, I was timid and shy. But the insults, rejection, and trauma still hurt and need healing and are healing. I especially appreciated "true faith isn't the absence of doubt but the courage to keep going despite it." And that is what we do, we keep going, and every now and then I remind God that I'm still here despite it all, and haven't left Him, and He hasn't left me either. God bless you, Sarah!
Aww bless you! Thank you for sharing a little piece of your story ❤️❤️❤️
You too Sister!!! ❤️❤️❤️
I saw your post of FB and was about to ask if you had ADHD 😆. So I thought I better click the blog link to read more first. I don't read many blogs! I am currently going through diagnosis for ADHD. I'm 38 and read a profile of it in women last year and it described me!! I finally had an answer for why I had been 'failing' at life. My words, or the enemy's, no one had ever said that. I just have never been able to hold a full-time job, I get physically sick. I hate doing any job I've ever done so I feel like I'm lazy and go into a depression and self medicate, feel like a failed Christian but know God loves me...rinse and repeat. I hope to find out for sure if I have ADHD soon.
Oh I am hearing you! Yes to your question. It took a long time for me to get there. But honestly… I don’t attach it to my identity anymore, but it did explain a lot. I think God created me exactly how I was supposed to be quirks and all. Keep doing you. You haven’t failed and praise God for grace… am I right?