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I needed this at this exact moment today. My fiancée, who I love , ended our relationship recently. I’m heartbroken. I’m not sure there will ever be reconciliation- I am leaning towards there won’t be. Very sad and devastating.

We attend a small church in our very small community. I haven’t been back in 6 weeks.

I have been mentoring 2 young ladies for several months. I have stayed away from church because I’m too scared to go back and see my former fiance’. ( It didn’t end well at all and I feel like he needs to have the opportunities presented to him in church for a hopefully future strong relationship with the Lord ) I am scared if I go , he won’t.

To say I’ve been in turmoil is an understatement. I’ve missed the girls , though.

Today one of them (the one who has yet to accept Jesus as her savior) texted me and asked me to come. I have prayed for over 24 hours on what to do. This devotion was in my feed this morning.

I feel God has spoken to me and I need to go , regardless if I see him and regardless of the reception I get , to continue my mission of being a light to these girls.

If anyone reads this , pray for me. I’m beyond nervous. I am emotional and I don’t want our awkwardness in this breakup to take away from everyone else being able to worship appropriately.

I am actually scared my mind will obsess over my former boyfriend if he’s there. And I know that’s of God. I truly hope I’m doing the right thing by going back. I hope it’s been long enough.

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Oh, Carmen, my heart aches with you. It’s so very brave of you to seek God’s guidance in a season so full of hurt, especially when facing fears that feel so close to home. The turmoil you’re feeling is so understandable, and I truly believe that God sees every part of it.

Your love for these young ladies shines so brightly through all of this, and they are truly blessed to have someone so dedicated in their lives. You stepping out in faith, even when it feels scary, is a powerful witness to them. Trust that God has equipped you with everything you need to face this moment—He goes with you, gently strengthening you each step of the way. I’m praying for peace to wrap around your heart, for courage to fill every anxious thought, and for God to guard your focus on Him.

Remember, you’re not walking in alone. He is there, holding you. You’re doing a beautiful, faithful thing, and He will honor your obedience and protect your heart. You’re not just “doing the right thing”; you’re walking into a holy purpose.

Sending love and lifting you in prayer.

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I absolutely love your flow Sarah. New follower.

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Thank you 🙏 ❤️❤️❤️

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How do your posts resonate with exactly where I am Always! Only God. I sit here with bed hair, struggling to breath with anxiety surrounded my parcels of love for people the Lord has laid on my heart. My house is a mess, I have clothes on that have food stains on and I’m a year into trauma therapy and still feeling like a mess. However He uses me still…. I’m no content creator with fancy writing and more and more by the grace of God I’m learning to love being before an audience of one. Thank you sweet sister you are doing kingdom work that is making a difference!

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Oh lovely, I am feeling you! Walking through the trauma is almost a full time job and it’s takes every bit of energy. But you’re right Only God… so you do you and your messy hair and food stains. I’m cheering you on and I just know you’re going to be a light to so many others ❤️❤️❤️

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This is SO GOOD!!!! Thank you for this & for all of your posts/encouragement/ministry!!! I can really relate to this as I too don’t fit the mold & God really does make us unique & uses us in unique ways! God bless you so much Sarah & God bless your continued ministry/all that you do in your very own unique way…. Keep on going & don’t hold back & don’t be swayed or anything - just be YOU & WHO HE’S MADE YOU TO BE!!!! Can’t wait to meet you someday, here or THERE ⬆️ ❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️🤗

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Oh my, your words of encouragement are exactly what I need today! I don’t fit the mold either, but guess what… you and me and the rest of the misfits are going to be blessed and sent out to show others that God can use all types in the body of Christ. Blessings ❤️❤️🥰

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You said it all so perfectly. Everyone who has put their life into the more-than-capable Hands of Yahusha-YHUH to be their Redeemer are called to be His hands, feet, mouthpiece in their corner of the world. The early believers were not polished statesmen. They held no degrees nor were they highly sought after for Speaking Engagements. They supported themselves at lowly, mundane jobs that were dirty and put callouses on their hands. (Think fishing, sail-making). That's what they did throughout the week. Then on each weekly Shabbat some of them met together in their homes while others walked into their local temple to teach Yahusha-YHUH's Message of Redemption to all who would listen. These men turned the world upside down, not because they had special, unique skills that made them fearless but because they knew, the way they knew their own names, that Yahusha-YHUH had definitely risen from the grave. That understanding gave them the courage to speak out about Him. They are us and we are them. Like them, we who are also nobodies in the world's eyes, (same as they were), can also turn our own world upside down. We have to be who we are and not try to imitate anyone else. If Yahusha-YHUH had wanted copies of someone, He would have made more of THEM. But He didn't. Because He wants us to work in His Vineyard in such a unique way that no copy of someone else could ever do the job.

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So beautifully said! ❤️❤️❤️

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Loved all of this! Especially: "You don’t have to be perfect. All we need is a willing heart, a readiness to show up just as we are, and God will do the rest." Amen!

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Oh it’s so true! I’ll tell you… I wouldn’t be showing up if perfection needed to be obtained ❤️ Praise God!

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So very encouraging for me this minute!💙.

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That blesses me so much to hear! Shine that light lovely 🥰

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