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Susan Cullis's avatar

This is an experience I have gone through and come out the other side. The Holy Spirit showed me one day the backpack I was carrying. It was full of rocks of years of trauma and pain. I saw a huge pair of scissors and they cut the straps for me and the rocks fell to the ground. I stepped over them holding Jesus's hand to steady me.

I felt such freedom inside and joy I hadn't experienced before in the 14 years of my of my healing journey. I believe God was working in me but this was a pivotal moment that changed me. My thoughts have altered, my view of life is so different and my soul rejoices in God . I wake up with a song in my spirit most days or a prayer or a beautiful memory I hadn't seen because of trauma.

Jesus is the only one who can reach deep down in our souls and heal those things we don't even want to look at or share with anyone else. But He knows and looking to Him brings us freedom. We were never meant to carry such a heavy load.

So the Holy Spirit cuts those straps so we can run free. Isn't it incredible what He can do ?

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S Tomlinson's avatar

What you said was so perfect! That’s exactly how I felt. Like it was time to let it break and I see life so differently now. Thank you for sharing your journey ❤️

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Sonya Klap's avatar

The backpack is such a great analogy. I myself carry suitcases, tucked under my arms and some in my hands. Some have burst open and some I have chains around with a lock 🔐. I too have gone through all the things: abuse of all kinds, abandonment from my parents as a teenager, PTSD, severe anxiety, clinical depression and my newest diagnosis Borderline Personality Disorder. I have been on med after med, therapist after therapist and too many hospital stays to count anymore. The last 10 yrs have been hell. My faith is on the cusp of ending. I can't go on anymore. No one understands me. God doesnt care about me, I'm one of His Misfits. I can't beg a God of love to help me anymore. I see no hope. I sit on a buddy bench waiting for someone to come along and join me but no one comes.

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Oh lovely 🥰 I know the pain and isolation you are feeling more than I can express and my heart feels your heart. But I promise you that God is right there with you, no prayer is too small and no questions or doubts or hurt will have Him turn away. This road can be so much tougher for some more than others, but I know my God holds me and He holds you too. ❤️❤️❤️

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Karen Jean's avatar

Beautiful! Thank you. 🙏🏻✨🙏🏻💕

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Aww bless ❤️❤️❤️

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Michelle Douthitt's avatar

Your “backpack” is a perfect visual of what so many of us go through. Mine broke and fell open at exactly the moment it needed to. God’s timing is perfect. We just need to be open to accept what He gives us each and ever day….Thank you for this one!!!

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Aww thank you 🙏 it’s exactly how I felt when it all came spilling out ❤️❤️❤️

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Suzanne's avatar

Thank you Sarah

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Aww thanks for reading and supporting this little space ❤️

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Mary Dekkinga's avatar

Thank you!

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Aww thank you for reading ❤️

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Tina Hasken's avatar

This is so identifiable to me- how many times I have been tempted to set that backpack down and leave it- but it’s part of my story and needed for the journey …. For now. Thank you for sharing! Beautiful piece🙏

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S Tomlinson's avatar

Aww I am so glad that my story resonated with you. It blesses me ❤️❤️❤️

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Jamie's avatar

Wow, just wow… 🙌

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Marion's avatar

Such a beautiful, open and honest post. Thank you Sarah. Jesus knows everything we have been through, are going through and what we will go through and he is always there for us, guiding and redeeming us.

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S Tomlinson's avatar

He will always be the hero of my story ❤️

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