With Each Chapter…

I had a reader send me a beautiful message of encouragement the other day and it came right when I so desperately needed it. At the end of the message she asked, “How do you have so many stories to share? It’s as if you never run out of things to write.” I pondered that sentence and wanted to tell her that what I’ve shared is only the tip of the iceberg.

That question stuck with me for days as I pressed rewind on my past and images flashed in my mind of moments. Thousands of moments and the imprint they left. Some so sad I struggled to even get through the images. For a moment I felt sorry for myself wondering why I had gone through so much and why was it now that this year I was called to walk through the trauma and step out from it. To heal, to walk from the wilderness to the warfare and then… into the rest.

I’ve done this before over and over and over but this time, it’s different. Deeper. Truly life changing. The backpack of pain I’ve carried and yet ignored finally broke as the straps slipped from my shoulders. And then through all my thinking it came to me as a whisper. “How can you speak to those going through their broken season if you’ve never been through what they are going through?”

I’m going to get real with you all… for a moment, I wished God never have chosen me to walk these roads. Decades of pain physically, mentally and emotionally would not have been my choice even for His glory. I know it sounds selfish and if I had to go through it again, I’d decline.

But I did go through it and I’m so thankful He was with me every step, whether I felt Him or not. And I often wonder how people go through this life , trying to navigate without calling out to Yahweh.

But their brokenness… I get it. I can come alongside them and wrap my arms, my words, my comfort around them and sit with them in the pain. I can give them that glimmer of hope and honestly promise them that through the cracks in their darkness, light will shine through and what awaits them is HOPE!

So finally getting back to the question of how I have so many stories… Simple. God gave them to me. He let me live a life with chapter after chapter, with experience after experience. Some beautiful, some chaotic, some life changing, some barren. But I know this… there’s more chapters to come, unedited, straight from typing to publish and I’m blessed that I don’t have to do them alone.

With each chapter, comes more experiences, more ups and downs and more words to document them all. So will I ever run out of words? Yes. But that’s the day my Father calls me into His kingdom and my final chapter here on earth ends.

I hope you continue to journey with me here and as you read these you feel as if you’re having coffee with a friend. That’s what I want for you. To know without a doubt that someone gets it. Gets you.

And thank you so much for supporting my walk in anyway you can. This is my full time job. It’s what I was called to do and I’m so blessed to be here and share it with you. Think about becoming a member and diving deeper with me, where I write the tough stuff, upload Bible studies, printable art, behind the scenes and more each month.

Love Sarah xx.