Unveiling the Shadows: Conquering Chaos.
Life has really thrown some unexpected curves my way this year. Yep, It's been quite the journey, trying to make sense of it all, almost like navigating through shadows, trying to decipher the patterns in how God shapes me. Each twist and turn, every trial, seems to hold its own unique lesson.
As I sit back and reflect on this refining period, I find myself in a space of transition, where the pace has slowed down, inviting me to find peace and walk in sync with the rhythm of Jesus. This year was supposed to be about focusing on my health—taking care of my mind, body, and spirit. But despite my best intentions, chaos seemed to take over.
I embarked on this journey without a clear roadmap, simply trusting the Spirit to guide me. Yet, the first few months left me feeling lost and confused. I found myself overeating, battling chronic pain, and wrestling with fear that threatened to consume me whole. It felt like I was straying off the path I thought I knew so well, stumbling into places I never intended to go.
Have you ever felt that way? Like you're on autopilot, making choices you never thought you would, only to wake up drowning in a sea of shame and self-doubt?
As I grappled with these thoughts, I stumbled upon a revelation: whenever I commit to change, I tend to dive in deeper than anticipated. It's like starting a diet on Monday after indulging in weekend treats. Maybe it's just me, but it seems to be a common human experience.
For me, breaking free from unhealthy habits means confronting them head-on, delving into the discomfort they bring. It's a messy process of shining a light on the darkness within, acknowledging the patterns that keep me captive.
I used to wish for instant healing—a miraculous fix to erase all the pain and struggle. But that's not how God works with me. Instead, He walks beside me through the mess, revealing the roots of my brokenness. He offers patience and grace, knowing that even when I feel weak, I have the strength to face whatever comes my way.
Recently, someone told me, "You're always going to battle one thing after another, and there will always be brokenness in you." Initially, I wanted to push back against such a bleak outlook. But then they said something that stopped me in my tracks: "Your cracks let out a whole lot of God's light to lead others to His throne."
How do you argue with that? As a follower of Jesus, I accepted that I would carry my cross. I knew life would be filled with struggles and trials.
So here I am, in the midst of the lessons, changes, waiting, wandering, grief, and refining. These seasons are inevitable. And though they may knock me down, they also lift me up, guiding me toward a firmer foundation.
Embracing the struggle isn't easy. But in my darkest moments, I find the strength to rise. I discover the narrow path that leads me home. And in that journey, I realize that even in my brokenness, I shine with God's light, guiding others seeking solace and grace.
So let's keep walking, one step at a time. Each stumble is a chance to lean harder on the rock that never fails us. And in the end, may I not just survive, but thrive, embraced by a love that knows no bounds.
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