I Wanted To Quit: But God’s Plan Was Better.

I wanted to step away from writing full-time this week. Wow, that’s a tough thing to admit, especially when writing is such a central part of my life. I feel silly now even thinking about it. It’s my passion and purpose, yet, at times, it can also feel incredibly heavy.

Honestly, it’s hard for me to admit my shortcomings in this post—the very fact that I sometimes want to quit something I know I’m blessed to be called to. I never wanted to be the woman who doubted and shared it publicly. I wanted to be the woman who had it all together and didn’t waver in her choice to write for Jesus. But then God reminded me that we all doubt. We all want to quit at times—whether it's a new hobby, working out, or adopting a healthy lifestyle—because sometimes the journey is long and the road hard.

And let me be clear, this isn’t a woe-is-me story; it was simply a woe-is-me moment. I’m human and I get tired. You feeling me?

Five years ago, when the Lord asked me to go full-time, it was a huge leap of faith. I struggled with the idea of moving to a single income, knowing the sacrifices it would entail. My husband has been my rock throughout this journey. His support and dedication have been incredible, and I’m profoundly grateful for him. When I spoke to him this week, and confessed my doubts, admitting I was considering going back to work to ease our financial strain, he listened to my concerns and then said something that deeply resonated with me. “When you said yes to God, we as a family said yes to Him and partnered alongside you. We’ve been clothed, fed, and sheltered every month, and I trust that God will continue to be faithful. You need to stay faithful to what He’s called you to do.”

And here’s the thing about this writing ministry: it’s more than just a post here and there. Truthfully, I work harder now than I ever did in a regular job. There’s always something to do—reading, praying, writing, posting, managing social media, answering emails, creating devotionals, and endless study. It took me a long time to set boundaries and not work on Little Sparrow Loved past dinner, because I’m still a mama. I have children who want to talk and spend time with me. They need to know that I’m theirs first when they’re home. But I had to learn that balance is essential. And that through it all, stressful times are going to come… that doubts will come, that feeling like you are failing will come.

I don’t know what God is calling you to, but I know how hard it can be to persevere through the planting, refining, and trusting in His plans. Sometimes, it seems easier to return to what felt more secure or stable. Yet, every day I choose to trust God and His plan, even when it’s difficult. My husbands words have encouraged me to stay focused on God’s faithfulness and provision, no matter how things may look or feel in the natural.

In moments of doubt, I need to remind myself of Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” This verse is the gentle reminder I need, that God’s understanding far exceeds our own and that He will guide us through every challenge.

So here I am, continuing to write (Of Course!), to trust, and to lean on God. It’s not always easy, but it’s a journey of faith that I have to stay committed to. Sometimes living out purpose is a struggle, and Jesus never said it would be easy, but it’s worth it. Stay the course and watch Him open doors that no man can shut.

And whatever you may be struggling with or wanting to quit, hold onto the hem of Jesus and keep going. Trust that He is with you as His plans unfold.

Love,

Sarah x

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