Depression is Hard.

Depression is hard and something many struggle with. Sometimes it’s more than feeling sad… it’s exhaustion, intrusive thoughts, the constant tiredness and yet unable to sleep. It’s the anxiety that pairs with it, causing a skipping heart all day and a tight stomach that keeps you worried. It’s shutting yourself away from the things you normally love because all of a sudden you have no desire. It’s closing the doors on people you usually want to see every day. It’s a grief you can’t escape. Even the smile you place on for a second is forced and before long the blankness returns. And the every day things become that little bit harder to do. It’s not something you can just walk out from because someone tells you to cheer up. It’s a process, a battle. I just thank God we have a Heavenly Father who fights for us.

It’s hard seeing the ones you love like this, and even harder when you’re living it day in day out yourself. But you keep looking for the light 💡 praying for the light, and the light shines for you or them even if you or them can’t see it in the storm.

If you are battling right know, then you probably don’t want to hear this but it’s true all the same. God’s got you! It’s not a generic answer, but the truth. When you feel no one else understands... He does. And He won’t go anywhere. Jesus will sit right beside you and wait until you’re ready to talk? He knows your struggle better than anyone else. He feels the trauma, understands what you’re going through and will patiently wait until you’re ready to step into the light once again.

Just keep whispering no matter what... “I love you Jesus.” No matter how many times it takes and remember always that you are loved, you have purpose and this season you are going through could help some one in their own season one day. Until that new season comes, be gentle with yourself, make no apologies, rest, go through the motions and do only what you can do, nothing more.

I don’t write this from an outsider looking in. I’ve lived it and I have felt the loneliness. It’s not something that disappears overnight and people telling you to just think positive or try and be happy, have no idea how hard this battle is. And soon… I will share my own battle, so hang around a little longer. But God knows where you’re at. You may not be healed overnight, but keep praying, keep handing your pain over. I would rather walk through anything with God, than do it alone.

Love Sarah, xx.

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

-Matthew 11:28