Called Not Compared…

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This post is a must read…For someone who is never short of words, I often pause when it comes to writing blog posts. Truth is, I’m not a fan of the kind of writing that gives you steps to being a better Christian and I certainly don’t fill the role of a proverbs woman.

Most weeks I struggle just to pull myself together, so to tell you how you should represent God would not feel right to me. Because here’s the thing… as Christian’s we know what to do and we’ve heard it a thousand times. Pray, have faith, get into the word and love as God loves. Pretty simple steps and we know that this is how we grow in wisdom. This is how we get through trials and this is how we can confidently be there for others. Am I right?

So as I sat outside this morning, talking with God and asking Him the question, “What is it Lord you want me to write about?” He let me know as clear as day. “Your honest journey.”Now, I know that sounds easy right? But here’s a little something about me … often comparison tries to sneak in.

I see other Christians out there who look like they have a handle on things. They have a beautiful social presence, they look put together and sometimes… they have a team behind them.

I am not those women and I’m a one woman with her God kind of set up. And the doubts begin to set in. How can I reach people when I’m just one little fish in a big ocean who feels as if she’s swimming in circles? But then God reminds me. I just have to look ahead and listen to His promptings. He will open doors no man can shut. He will set into motion things I can not do in my own strength and I simply have to keep pressing forward and trust.

I think so many of us pause or sometimes not even step out due to comparison. We think that we can’t possibly be used by God because we don’t have the right look, knowledge, skills or team behind us like someone else might. But comparison can kill a calling if we let it. Some may not agree with me, but I believe that if you have a calling and you choose not to do it, God will give part or all of it to someone else to walk it out to fulfilment.

I honestly in my heart don’t believe I was the first choice for this ministry. I believe I was supposed to be the behind the scenes support for someone else. That someone chose to walk a path that kept them in a small position that was never meant to be the full picture and the Lord passed the baton to me. They let the extraordinary calling pass to hold onto the ordinary position they desired. But this person, because I knew what a massive calling they had passed up and because now I carried the calling… I compared myself to them. I wasn’t bold like them, I didn’t have that kind of presence that caused people to pause and listen, I didn’t have the knowledge they held. But after years of comparing, God showed me this. I had a heart of mercy, a sensitivity and the understanding of what being truly broken meant. And that… Is how He would shine His light through me.

So what’s the takeaway from this post you’re wondering? As ambassadors of Christ, we all have a calling. But I believe that many of us are stuck in comparison and feeling unqualified to share the love of God in brave ways. So let me say this… you don’t need to be at some level you’ve built up in your mind. You don’t need to have all the answers on how to live the perfect life. This little ministry proves that. I share my faults, flaws, questions, brokenness and failings but every single story ends the same way. God is always in each and every thing I write.

That’s the real of it. That’s the truth. He is in every part of every post I write and He can be a part of yours too. So share boldly, encourage others, drop the comparison and press on forward because God is walking in your calling with you.

Thank you so much for journeying with me here and allowing me to share pieces of my walk with you. Your support means so much to me and I thank God daily He called me to encourage His beloveds.